I don’t believe it. From the beginning, I struggled to believe it and after reading the reports and the statements and the pile-on of repugnance, I am still not convinced that she is guilty. Like her close friend I could only believe it if she turned round and admitted it. Even then, people for all sorts of strange reasons, will admit to crimes they have never committed. The truth is, I don’t know, only God knows and I could be very wrong, as so often I am, but there is something deeply unsettling and unconvincing about the way the trial has run its course and the public reaction that disturbs me. My gut says “Maybe it’s not right”.
Again, I have not heard all the evidence or sat through the proceedings and so my judgement is at best flimsy, nor am I lawyer, still I have what could be considered reasonable doubts. Was there any direct evidence? How much was circumstantial? Are text messages and scribbled notes genuine evidence of guilt? Was there any real proof of motive? Were post-mortems conclusive? And behind it all was there an unholy rush, to find and identify someone, a scape goat to divert attention from other failings?
The big question remains. Is it possible for a jury to get it wrong? The answer is an unequivocal “Yes”. Jury’s do sometimes get it wrong; they don’t always get it right. There have been miscarriages in the past and likely to be in the future. Sometimes individuals have been wrongly denied justice and incarcerated for decades while others have died without hearing that their verdict was quashed.
I don’t believe it, but I recognise that my judgment could simply be based on a flawed feeling. Was it the fact that the images of the attractive caring nurse, with the baby pulled on my emotional weakness and made me not want to believe it? It certainly played a part. I recognise that. My experience as a prison volunteer may also colour my judgement. At the same time, I do not doubt that any one of us are capable of the most heinous of crimes. It is only by God’s mercy that we are restrained and spared that.
But I am still not sure. The judgment, however, has been given, so we have to accept that and, if it doesn’t sound like a crass contradiction, I do hope the judgement was safe and that they got it right, because the horror of the alternative would be as great as the one experienced by the grieving parents.
Restless Spirit 
I think it’s worth noting the following, in no particular order:
She took home patient notes of some of the babies that died.
Appeared infatuated with one doctor – and showed great emotion when he gave evidence in court. He was the one designated to be called to the unit in an emergency.
In most baby deaths there is usually some deterioration before collapse. In the case of Letby, there weren’t any prior warnings.
Deaths and collapses stopped immediately when she was prevented from working on the unit
Her diary and post-it notes.
In at least one baby, it was deemed certain that large amounts of insulin had been administered.
I think scans showed what was believed to be pockets of air inside some of the babies.
I know, but I am still left with my doubts and can’t let it rest.
I’ve shifted a fair bit towards your thinking on this, since writing my comment. I think it’s fair to raise concerns.
If you haven’t yet read it, I highly recommend Rachel Aviv’s long, detailed article in the New Yorker, in May, called ‘A British Nurse Was Found Guilty of Killing Seven Babies. Did She Do It?’
It’s still not available in the UK, but it is using VPN connection. The case is now over, so it should be available in the UK. It’s required reading on this topic. I can email it to you if you are unable to access it.